“Wisdom is holding two contradictory truths in our mind, simultaneously. Hope and despair. A life without despair is a life without hope. Holding these two ideas in our head is life itself.”
“How easily they talk about prayer, those who have never really prayed.”
----- thoughts written in the diary of Rev Ernest Toller, via “voice over”, in First Reformed, scripted by Paul Schrader
Any evaluation of the film First Reformed would be considerably enhanced by some knowledge
about the American Trappist monk, theologian, social activist Thomas Merton
(1915-68), who had interacted with Buddhist monks, and studied Hinduism, Jainism, Sufism, Sikhism,
Confucianism, Taoism, and published his thoughts in his bestselling autobiography, The Seven Storey Mountain and other works. In the film First Reformed, the principal figure
Rev Ernest Toller (Ethan Hawke) writes a diary (read by "voice over") on his
thoughts just as Merton had put his thoughts on paper that eventually became a
best seller. Director and original scriptwriter Paul Schrader makes the
connection visually by showing us the stack of Merton’s published works in
Toller’s room and at least two references to Merton verbally in the film.
Rev Toller (Ethan Hawke) delivers his sermon in his church |
The writing of the diary and the “voice-over” reading of the
written lines are not just a connection to Merton’s and Tolller’s habits in
Schrader’s film but an important device employed in the script that becomes
critical to unravel the ending of the film.
At the end of the film, there is no voice over, there is silence.
Toller and Esther (Victoria Hill): Esther expresses concern for Toller's health |
Schrader’s script revolves around Rev Toller, the pastor of
a historical church that once had served as a refuge for runaway slaves in USA.
Toller was once married and had a son he lost in the Iraq war as a US soldier.
Toller himself served in the US army as a chaplain, and had encouraged his son
to enlist. The eventual death of his son wrecked his marriage. Early in Schrader’s film there is a shot of
the near empty church with one bespectacled lady, Esther (a very convincing
Victoria Hill), sitting prominently in one of the nearly empty benches. Any
viewer of Ingmar Bergman’s Winter Light
(1963) will recall Rev Tomas looking at the bespectacled Marta in that film in
a similar situation. As First Reformed progresses,
the viewer learns that Esther is in love with Toller with fervent hopes that he
would marry her just as Marta and Tomas in the Swedish classic. Much later in
the film First Reformed, Toller is
introduced to a troubled environmental activist Michael who wishes to abort his
wife’s foetus because he does not want his child to be born in a polluted world
run on business interests. Michael’s worries are not far removed from those of
Jonas’ (Max von Sydow) worries of China developing nuclear capability that he
confides with Rev Tomas in Winter Light.
Both films’ priests are concerned with Christianity they preach and forced
to look at external realities.
After those common
threads, Schrader’s script grows on its own merit—the development of the thinly
attended First Reformed Church of Toller under the umbrage of the Abundant Life
Church with Rev Joel Jeffers (Cedric the Entertainer a.k.a. Cedric Kyles) who functions as a big brother
senior priest towards Toller—mainly because Jeffers’s church is flushed with
“abundant” money and members that include a successful businessman who own industries
that pollute the countryside. The troubled Michael commits suicide, while
Toller realizes that the Abundant Life Church is run by the very forces that
the late Michael had hated and feared. This Abundant Life Church in turn supports the
First Reformed Church of Toller.
Toller and Mary (Amanda Seyfried): Mary wants to resist aborting her foetus, an action her husband Michael wants her to take |
Rev Toller, the viewer soon realizes, is suffering from a
serious ailment (he is urinating blood) but continues to consume significant
quantities of liquor in private. He is also consulting a doctor. Toller’s church
member and admirer Esther too is concerned about his health but he rebukes her
for it. Jeffers too is worried that Toller is spending too much time in the figurative
Garden (the biblical Garden of Gethsemane where Jesus prayed to God to remove
the cup of suffering/wrath if He willed it).
Toller simultaneously gets psychologically and emotionally closer
to the pregnant Mary (Amanda Seyfried),
the wife of the late Michael. Mary plans to leave town to be with her sister.
In spite of an Andrei Tarkovsky-like levitation sequence [The Sacrifice (1986); The
Mirror(1975)] there is no suggestion of a carnal relationship between the
two.
Toller and Mary: at the funeral of Michael |
Schrader’s script emphasizes that First Reformed is less about Mary, Michael, Esther or Jeffers—it is
more about Toller and his diary, which is essentially spiritual. Toller knows
that he is about to die from a serious medical condition. Influenced by Michael’s
suicide, Toller is tempted to blow up the enemy of Michael with Michael’s own
devices but changes his mind when he sees Mary with her unborn child in his
church. What is debatable is whether Toller is more concerned about the unborn
child of Michael that he had wanted to be born into this world earlier in the
film or his platonic affection for Mary suffering from depression in her recent
widowhood. Perhaps, both.
Toller wears his "crown of thorns" |
Where Schrader scores
most is his diligent effort to weave in biblical quotations that reflect
Merton’s and Toller’s views into the script. The loaded final conversation
between Jeffers and Toller is punctuated with such quotes. While one wondered
why Schrader showed Toller picking up the barbed wire fencing near the church’s
graveyard which had killed a hare, the ultimate use of the barbed wire in the
film is visually reminiscent of the crown of thorns worn by Jesus.
Schrader’s true winner is the ending which a keen viewer
would not accept at face value. There
are several clues to decipher what actually happened: the replacement of the alcohol in the glass with a chemical liquid, Toller changing into a white cassock (throughout the film he wears a
black one) with fresh blood stains, the embrace of Mary who does not seem to be
affected by the barbed wire under the cassock, and the sudden silence. The film’s initial sequence outside the church
is also silent. Toller's final action can be connected to the initial words scribbled
in his diary: A life without despair is a
life without hope.
First Reformed has won 55 awards already.
P.S. Thomas Merton was in
Darjeeling in the late 60s and early 70s interacting with Buddhist monks and
Jesuits, the very years this author
was a student there in a Jesuit high school. What a coincidence! Could we have passed each other on some street
or corridor? Bergman’s Winter Light
is one of the author’s top 10 films ever
made and has been reviewed on this blog. Tarkovsky’s The Mirror has also been
reviewed in detail on this blog. (Click on the names of the films in this
postscript to access the reviews)